Tired and Weary....

Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Do You ever grow tired or weary of following after Christ? Sounds horrible huh? But I do... I get into the habit of not seeking after Him. Whether it is a busy weekend or a visit from family that gets me off track with my daily quiet times and prayer, I get off my routine and can't seem to get back on that illusive track I once rode. I grow weary of reading and praying without seeing the benefits.
I am so naive. I am so weak in my own sinful flesh. I return to my roots of sin and allow Satan to take hold. Grr Lindsey, Grr. I have been through this cycle how many times in my life? You would think by now that I would learn... but I don't. I am just not strong enough in my faith to remain constant to the One who truely loves me for me. He elected me before time began to be adopted into his big ole family of wonderfully blessed sinners. God chose ME. God adopted me from a parent who only wanted to use me. A parent who would have thrown me away at the flip of a switch if I were not satisfying his needs. Satan was the father I was born to. But God is the Father I was called to. God rescued me from my abusive birth parent and SAVED ME from my own sin. Yes, I still sin, yes I still struggle with my former parent... but God has CUSTODY of me and He is never relenquishing those rights. Why? Because he NEVER grows tired or weary. Never. I hope in the Lord, and so I am assured that He will strenghten me. He will renew me. He will continue to pick me up, kiss my boo-boos and set me on the right path. But I need to dig my heels into the ground which He has planted me on. I need to not only hope... but TRUST. Whole-heartedly, trust that what I ask, I shall receive. Know, that if I prayed, in FAITH, that God would move The mountain in my backyard, that HE WOULD MOVE IT. Alas, I don't think his will is for the mountain to be moved, but I wouldn't be fit to pray for it anyways. Time to walk and not grow faint... time to be in prayer for increased strenght and FAITH. Time to search the scriptures for encouragement in both areas... Join me. Satan is never going to satisfy our hearts. Satan will never be merciful to us. Satan will never strengthen us, or help us up when we fall. GOD WILL. GOD will mount us up on wings like eagles. Let's soar with Him. Let's reach for Him. Let's love Him, just as He loved us... after all, He Adopted us into His family... knowing full well what we would be like and the sins we would commit. I know I will fail. I know I will fall down and God will have to pick me up, set me straight, and watch me fail again... but I'd rather fall down while trying.
LL